When your heart is broken

I know it's really hard to accept that someone we fall in to, doesn't do the same. I mean, who says one-sided love is easy and fun? The first thing you need to do is accepting, nothing else. After that, you may cry as hard as you wish. Trust me, you will feel much better. Then you get tired of crying, your sense will come back. You'll start to think, is he/she even worth your teardrops?

But you will deny all logic and put 'how deep your feeling' to him/her as your shield. You feel like you need time to heal but in fact, you spend your time thinking about him/her again. Every corner of your mind will be filled with his/her shadow. You keep recalling memories about him/her. It's a long journey and nobody should rush you.

Your state is in between. Forgetting him/her is as hurt as you loving him/her. Maybe then you start to hate. How could a human creature make you feel like this? But you realize, it was the decision from a long time ago before you fell in love. You already know the risk. You need to accept the fact.

I guess you still think about him/her, but not as much as before. Every time you find thing related to him/her, you remember how you feel before. I could say, it's ok. You need to adapt in any situation. You'll know how to control yourself. Until finally you learn, you both live in separate paths and you don't need to push yourself into his/her paths.

The wound might be still there, but you're recovering. You want to start a fresh living in your paths. You want to be happy. You'll be busier than ever, trying to find your own self. Seeking another opportunities in your study, career, and purpose of your life. They say when you're focus on developing yourself, you're blooming. You'll leave your sadness behind. The one who you used to love will be no one interfering your life.

You'll stop worrying about someone for your life. You'll understand, the one who you need the most is yourself and the one who loves you the most is also yourself.