Mind Stories

((except he/she is toxic for your life)) I once a bit understand about the regrets of pushing someone away just because I didn't want someone else feel hurt. Bur instead, I hurt. He was the one who tell me lot of thing about how to live freely, the one who did the homework with me in every free time, the one whom I talked cheerfully about what I thoughts, the one who showed his kindness as simple as bring me lunch box, the one who helped me a lot in teasing my ex, the one who made me brave riding motorbike up to 80 km/h, and the one who challenged me being 'me' in; unexpectedly; better ways. We had not been in deep discussion because we didn't want nor need to make something complicated. His ex hate me so much and somehow I felt guilty so I did stupid act: pushed him away even he tried to be the one who spent much time for having discussion with me. He understood what I've tried to do so we rarely talked and texted since that time. And now I miss him, a lot. It'...

Disclaimer: it is some thoughts I have after talking and discussing with my dearest besties, it's super subjective thoughts that I don't mind whether you have another perspectives. I feel like it's way too far for marriage life. I'm still on my last year of college and still need to study for professional study; takes around 1.5 years At first I put a target on marriage but I realize there are so many things I have to and want to do by myself. I delete the marriage's target. Some people say it's okay to marry even though we're still being a student, but I'm not. Let's say I want to fulfill my targets and achievements before I get attached with someone else as married couple. To be honest, I'm on my way to pursue those things and still don't have any scenario of someone's coming I'm ambitious person with less level of tolerance of someone stepping on my way (except that person has better solution for me getting what I want) I need to f...

But well, I still put a crush on you

Is started with stop thinking about you

Who could just walk and talk freely With a normal heart rate Even sometimes I'd go freaking happy Since you stay in my mind after a meet up I can't help but smile quite wide But I know it never last long As it is just it is So I found it is enough to be your friend