Thoughts about marriage

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Disclaimer: it is some thoughts I have after talking and discussing with my dearest besties, it's super subjective thoughts that I don't mind whether you have another perspectives.

  1. I feel like it's way too far for marriage life. I'm still on my last year of college and still need to study for professional study; takes around 1.5 years
  2. At first I put a target on marriage but I realize there are so many things I have to and want to do by myself. I delete the marriage's target.
  3. Some people say it's okay to marry even though we're still being a student, but I'm not. Let's say I want to fulfill my targets and achievements before I get attached with someone else as married couple.
  4. To be honest, I'm on my way to pursue those things and still don't have any scenario of someone's coming
  5. I'm ambitious person with less level of tolerance of someone stepping on my way (except that person has better solution for me getting what I want)
  6. I need to find my best version of myself before I meet someone. Hopefully that person does the same thing I do. I read on 'Sabtu Bersama Bapak', story about Saka and Ayu feels right. I want it that way.
  7. Right now I have nobody's close and nobody's in mind. Still I don't want to try hard on find that one person. Let it be.
  8. I know it sounds selfish but youth doesn't come twice in life so c'mon spend this early and mid 20s with best memories we could make!!!

That's it. I wrote this because right now my cousin is teasing me to take ticket for married but I don't think it's me next. I'm soon 23 and still collecting the value of life itself.

Cheers 🍻

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