Melangkah Mundur

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Aku pernah lama berdiri di hadapanmu

Kini aku sedang melangkah mundur

Perlahan dan lambat

Aku masih bisa melihatmu sembari melangkah

Wujudmu yang semakin kecil dan buram dari tempat ku berdiri

Meskipun sesekali aku tersandung oleh kerikil kenangan masa lalu

Aku tak akan berhenti

Apalagi kembali maju untuk memperjelas wujudmu

Aku akan teruskan langkahku

Memudarkanmu hingga aku bisa berbalik badan

Dan berlari cepat ke arah lain yang menungguku

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